Claire hopes speaking her truth builds connections and generates hope. At 32, she was diagnosed with acute hepatic porphyria (AHP) after a 19-year search for answers. As severe, unexplained pain became a focal point of life, she exiled her body to protect her mind. Through laughter and challenges, “One Thousand Flaming Swords” navigates daily life with AHP, as Claire rebuilds the bridge between her physical and mental being.
I thought I might never get over the loss I felt upon learning I had acute hepatic porphyria. In my early 30s, I lost my job, my ability to do traditional full-time work, and my medical coverage, and I couldn’t find an in-state provider to take my case. The…
Every October, the Midwest Alliance for Mindfulness (MAM) hosts a silent retreat in the woods outside of Kansas City, Missouri. For five days, I volunteered not to speak. I knew it would be difficult, but nothing prepared me for what would actually happen. We arrived on Sunday afternoon to…
Acute hepatic porphyria (AHP) symptoms are caused by a specific set of triggers, so early on in my rare disease journey, I used strategic lifestyle adjustments to prevent and predict my attacks. But it wasn’t that easy. The first three years…
The first time I realized I was rare, a doctor at the Mayo Clinic said he’d never seen a test for acute hepatic porphyria (AHP) come back positive. Mayo Clinic was my last hope, the place I went when no one else could help. A medical resident on my…
Blaming COVID-19 was convenient the first two times Michael and I canceled our wedding. For me, it was an easier excuse than the truth. In managing acute hepatic porphyria (AHP), the rituals of life fall away. AHP is a rare, unpredictable disease that produces chronic and…
I don’t always know how my body feels upon waking. After acute porphyria symptoms went undiagnosed for years, I grew adept at dissociating from my pain. It’s how I survived. However, one recent morning in Jackson, Wyoming, my body needed no introduction. Like the G-force of an…
The first thing I wanted to do after I learned I had acute hepatic porphyria (AHP) was to find my people. I received my diagnosis at the Mayo Clinic in Rochester, Minnesota, a few hours from my house. I knew my doctors couldn’t name names of other…
Michael pulled on a soft green shirt, its fabric thinning and stained with splatters of white paint. It’s part of his “get stuff done” outfit, symbolizing his intentions to get started on the yardwork. I appreciate my partner’s drive for projects, especially the ones I identify and he executes. Last…
I used to be a distance runner. More accurately, I used to be a runner of a very defined distance. For years, I tried completing marathon training schedules, only to top off at about 16 or 17 miles. I could build endurance and strength, but I always seemed to…
With the release of Netflix’s “Queen Charlotte: A Bridgerton Story” on May 4, it seems like everyone’s talking about acute porphyria. “Queen Charlotte” explores a queen’s role in supporting a king whose mental illness is a nation’s secret. King George III is known for losing the American colonies…
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